Things change, and I've slowed down quite a bit. I've realized that so much of my company was consuming my life, and sometimes it felt like doing what I loved was a chore. Your passion should never feel like a chore. The whole reason I got into this business in the first place was because I loved doing it. I could share my artistic and technical skills with the world and that gave me great pleasure. I never imagined I would have the opportunity to go as far as I did with it. I went from working in my mother's basement until 3am (and working other part time jobs the rest of the time) to owning a beautiful house and the top design company in my niche, working with clients like Lenny Kravitz, Kylie Minogue, and literally hundreds more.
I had my work showcased by Myspace Inc. at a freakin' Microsoft conference with Bill Gates. Never in a million years would I have thought that would happen. Never in a million years did I think that the president of Myspace would personally contact me just to get my input on their new system from a design perspective. (By the way, I completely told him how horrible their new ideas for the profiles were... and if you used to be on Myspace, well, you know how it turned out when they actually went through with the changes despite all of their bad ideas. It was the death of the site just like I predicted.)
However, after so many years of working my butt off and modestly bringing in big bucks, I am realizing that that chapter of my life has come to a close. I no longer have the constant business (read: the death of Myspace as 90% of my business came from there) and sometimes find myself searching for jobs. Something I fortunately never had to do before as they always just came to me.
The paths that led me here led me here for a reason. I feel indifferent about the whole thing because on one hand, I miss having clients lined up and the security of knowing that I have jobs each month. On the other, I like my simple life now. I like not having to work until 3am. I am ready to settle down and start a family one day.
I see other people in this industry doing exactly what I was doing. Working their butts off, buying expensive things. Talking about themselves so highly as if they were the first people to have successful businesses. I laugh because I was there once... and it doesn't last forever unless you dedicate your entire life to it. I didn't want to dedicate my entire life to it anymore. There are so many other things I want to accomplish now... and while I may be starting at the bottom again, I will always have my past achievements, and no one can take those away from me.
Sometimes you just need to take a step back before you can move forward.
So with that said, I'm going to be offering some custom design services right here on this little blog. I enjoy doing small projects and I am excited to be able to work with people on a freelance basis since I never had time for it before. If you're interested in checking out the brand new page I added to this blog, go here.
xo Dana





You are still going to do custom blog designs right? PLease say yes, I have been saving my pennies for you to make my blog pretty... really, it needs help.
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@Jamie
ReplyDeletehaha yes, silly. did you read the last paragraph? ;)
Congrats on your decision. I know from experience that it is hard to step back from good money, but doing what you love is far better.
ReplyDeletePlus, once other people realize they can get a blog design as awesome as mine...the business will start rolling in :).
Beautiful post! It's great that you get to take time to breath and still continue what you love to do (on the side) ;-)
ReplyDeleteI think that is a very brave decision. :) I'm kind of doing the same thing right now. Taking a step back so I can get ready to move forward. :)
ReplyDeletethat is totally annoying, thye ask your opinion then completely ignore it!
ReplyDeleteI think you are doing the right thing. My rule....work to live, not live to work.
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you go girl :) it's always great to grow your business.
ReplyDeleteI want to thank you so much for visiting my blog and for commenting on it. I really appreciate your visit, as well as your genuine comment. I went ahead and hopped on over to yours, and I really enjoy it. The design is clean and pretty, and, sooooomeday I may ask for your assistance. :) I really enjoyed your DIY section, and hopefully can add more projects to my list. I enjoyed reading about your fiance, Dustin. I am in a long-term (but also long-distance) relationship right now, so I can relate. We're talking about engagement now, actually. I hope his citizenship comes through easily, and I wish both of you a lifetime of happiness. I'll probably be following from now on, so don't be surprised to see other random and inane comments from me (though I probably won't discuss Polly Pocket).
ReplyDeletethanks for being an inspiration.
ReplyDeleteIt's so true. I used to be the shiz in high school. Then I got married and had a kid and was sort of successful in college. Now that I have given my whole life to my kids, my "success" is not very apparent on the outside. But I chose to dedicate myself to them and I could not be happier.
ReplyDeleteThis post was great. Good luck with your future endeavors! Your work is beautiful.
I hear ya about working your fingers to the bone! As much as I love my job and industry, it can get so daunting at times :(
ReplyDeleteI had no idea that you did that much design work! so cool! and p.s. I did get your e-mail about swapping buttons, you can grab one from my blog (unless you need another size) and I am going to grab one from here right now!
ReplyDeleteAND, I am also (shamelessly) plugging a giveaway on my blog. But it is for a really cool vintage t-shirt (winner gets to choose their design from the website) so I don't feel too guilty about it ;) The Mitten State Vintage T-Shirt Giveaway!
xo,
ashley
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What a beautiful and honest post! I will keep your information on file for my client. I am an illustrator, I love what I do, however I am often asked about web/blog design, which I do not do. It is nice to have nice people to refer them to :) By the way, I love all the work you share with all of your talents :)
ReplyDeletecongratulations on this big decision, and having the courage to take a step in another direction. wishing you all kinds of luck and success <3
ReplyDeleteThanks for this post. You have been an inspiration, I am currently in school for graphic design and it is currently where all of my money is going. Everyone has told me there is no money in art, and I don't mean to sound greedy, but success like yours helps me keep going :)
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