Sales weren't crazy at all, but steady throughout the day. I was able to stay organized and get everything ready for shipping as the day went on. I'm excited to see what today holds during the member/everyone sale! If you haven't joined Heartsy yet, do it!!
Now onto Part 2 of this blog post. I hate to bring the happy vibe down, but there's been something on my mind and I thought that maybe writing it down would make me feel better.
I've been stuck in this never ending spiral of negativity with some people close to me and I don't know how to get out of it. I don't even completely know why it exists. I feel like I'm being judged every time we have a conversation. Scratch that. I know I'm being judged. I know that no matter what I say to them, it will be taken out of context. So I am quiet. I stopped being involved with their lives. I stopped inviting them over... because really, how many invites can you hand out only to have then rejected? The funny thing is, now I am the bad person for not reaching out. Of course.
These people... my family... have such a dislike towards me for reasons that don't even make sense or matter. We used to be happy, we used to be there for each other. They've conceived these situations in their own minds that they believe to be true, all the while not knowing the truth. I never did anything wrong. Everything I've ever done has been with good intentions... but how do you force a blind person to see that -- when in their minds I've apparently had malicious ones. It's so backwards. Such a wall has been put up between us that never existed before, all because one person takes things out of context, fabricates an idea of what actually happened, and is far too sensitive.
When asked what caused this wall to be built in the first place, they bring up a situation from 4 years ago... FOUR YEARS ago... that I had honestly forgotten about because it was so insignificant. Myself and one of them had mistakenly purchased the same type of Christmas gift for the other. Apparently I had done this intentionally, even though it was on the list of things to get for this person, which was given directly to me by the one I apparently copied. Yes friends, this is how the root of all of our problems stems. It really is as pathetic as it sounds. Like I said, I had completely forgotten about this incident (if you can even call it that) until I was made aware that this is the reason for the ongoing negativity. Seriously..?!
Since then, I've apparently upset them in many ways. I can't even tell you what I've "done wrong" because I honestly don't know. Whenever I do anything, they get offended in one way or another. No one can ever do anything right, or say anything right. If you don't try to word things in a way that would be accepted by them, you've hurt them somehow.
What causes people to be like this? So trapped inside their own little bubble and so oblivious to the fact that the world was not created to please them. How do you make them realize that nobody is out to intentionally hurt them, and that everything they think they know has all been formulated in their own minds?
How do you even attempt to talk to someone about feeling this way when you already know that the outcome will result in one of them feeling 'hurt'... because, of course it's always about how they feel in the end..... ...
Until next time,