If you were to ask me how many times I've fallen in love, the answer is simple. Once.
If you would have asked me this three years ago, the answer would have been much different. Back then, I would have maybe said 3 times, but that was before I knew what real love was.
When you're "in love" with someone, you can't even realize how much MORE you can love someone else. I thought that I loved past boyfriends. I had "serious" ones for years. I had all of those funny feelings and butterflies that are expected when you love someone, and my heart even seemed to agree. I thought that they might have even been "the one". Boy, was I wrong.
Something changed when I met Dustin. It sounds so cliche, but I really did know he was the one. I hadn't experienced anything like what I felt with him, even though I thought I had felt it all in the past. It was like love multiplied by 100 to the power of something, squared. I'm a math whiz, obviously. The best part -- he felt the same way too. We just meshed together perfectly. We belonged together.
When we were living in different countries, it was the worst possible feeling I can remember. We would have our amazing visits and then he would be gone. My whole body... heart and mind actually physically ached when I would think about him. I just wanted him with me all the time. Our daily chats and biweekly visits weren't enough. I can remember laying in bed at night with thoughts running through my mind. They were frustrating to me and at times I would actually let out an angry "ughhh!". Why did he have to live so far away? When will I see him again? What if he doesn't feel the same way? Will this ever work out? What if I lose him? I just want him here!!! I know he's the one!!!
The thing is, you really can't understand true love until it happens to you. You could be in a current relationship and think you understand what love is and believe that person is your 'soul mate', but later realize that what you were thinking was so wrong when you actually meet your real true love... and when that actually happens, you'll KNOW.
I can't even explain the weird feelings that I experienced down our road of love... but one thing I knew was certain -- none of that "love" in the past even mattered. I had seen the truth of what love really is and it seemed so silly to even classify my past experiences as being in love.
Whoever said that you "just know" when you meet the ONE was totally and completely right.