I’m not good at communicating with other people. Which probably sounds weird because I spend a lot of my time on this blog, but it’s true. I’ve never really been the type of person to naturally and spontaneously strike up a conversation with someone or make my presence known in a crowd of people. It’s not that I’m shy… it’s just out of character for me.
While I feel like I have more freedom to chat with others online, I’ve noticed that I am still pretty reserved when it comes to getting to know other bloggers, and even readers of mine. I’d like to think I am someone who has developed all of these internet/blogger friendships and am entirely connected even with my own audience, but the truth is, I haven’t and I am not, really.
I’ve always been the girl that observes, sits, and listens as opposed to the one who is out there networking and spreading her personality all over the place. Actually… probably 90% of the people who know who I am don’t actually know me. Growing up, I would never raise my hand in class, but if I was asked personally, I would willingly answer. I never had an issue with conversing with someone or opening up, I just wouldn’t voluntarily be the first one to begin. I’m not anti-social, I’m just more comfortable being a people watcher. I don’t even think about it to be honest.
I hadn’t really thought about it until now, but I’m sure this turns people off or makes them less comfortable to approach me. In reality, I am super friendly and do love to talk and get to know other people, I’m just usually not the one who will actively seek out others to strike up a conversation with. That might make me appear kind of standoffish or unfriendly if you don’t know me, but those traits are completely opposite of who I am.
The truth is…
… I’d love to be the girl who can easily make friends wherever she goes.
… I’d love to open up more and meet new people.
… I don’t want people to be afraid to talk to me or think that I don’t want to talk to them.
… I’d love to be able to chat with more of you fellow bloggers and creative people.
So this is something that I think I am going to try to work on, because I believe I can be that person. Stepping out of character might be a good move, because the times I have taken those steps outside of my comfort zone have introduced me to some of the greatest people and planted the best relationships. It might be nice to at least try.