When I was a kid, I wanted to be a Disney artist. Then I wanted to be a ballet dancer, then a singer, then a hairdresser, then an artist again, then a cinematographer, then just a photographer, then a 3D animator, then a record store owner, with a fashion label, and then I finally settled on digital design, but not without creating multiple other ventures in the process.
I have a real problem with staying in the same place for a long period of time. By “space” I mean head space, really. I constantly need to be creating and trying new ideas… and then I move on. I’ve always been this way ever since I can remember. By the time I finish something, I’m already thinking about what else I can do. I struggle with this blog sometimes because my direction changes and sometimes I start to think about re-doing the whole thing. When people ask me what I do for a living, I have a hard time answering now. “I create things” seems to make the most sense to me, but obviously that would seem like a cop out to others.
This year I’ve been entirely focusing on creating a life that I want. Everyone deserves that for themselves, don’t they? To do that, I needed to stop doing client design work (and focus more on my pre-made designs), and a lot of people don’t really understand why. It’s tough to say “because I don’t want to do that” and not get a few weird looks or remarks. Is it strange that I want to do what I want to do and nothing else? Shouldn’t we all have that privilege? I think we all deserve that at least.
So, what is it that I want to do? Pretty much what I’m doing right now… making a living online through creative ventures. Having ideas and making them come to life. Creating, and letting go. This allows me to be creative and not get stuck in the same place for long. I thrive off of hearing about other people’s online business ventures and am inspired by people like Pat Flynn, Tim Ferriss, and other super successful e-preneurs. I don’t read lifestyle blogs or care about celebrity news… I listen to business podcasts and take e-courses.
I wake up when I want, I do as much or as little work as I want, I spend my days however I want, and I wouldn’t want it any other way right now. It is very stress free. I don’t mean for that to sound like all I do is sit around in a fancy robe eating chocolate bars or something. “However I want” usually means learning a new skill or playing around with new ideas. I love brainstorming. I am obsessed with it.
I can’t say for sure that I will never go back to custom designing or things like that. I’m sure I will at some point, but I know for sure that right now I am happy. Will I forever be in search of the “next big idea”? Of course, but until then, my smaller ideas fill the void. Who knows what I will be doing a year from now… I am ever evolving.