I enjoy being alone a lot of the time and would rather spend a night in with a good movie than taking a trip to the bar any day. I don’t think this helps my anxiety one bit, but that’s also who I’ve always been. I’ve never been one to enjoy making grand plans with groups of people and I don’t see myself ever being that person.
I like being in my own head space. I’m an introvert. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that, but when you’re trying to combat mental issues it can (no doubt) be a pain in the ass. I’m supposed to force myself to get out there and socialize…. but anxiety aside, sometimes I just don’t want to. Sometimes I am perfectly content hanging out with myself, as funny as that sounds to some.
I guess I’m just trying to figure out how to balance both worlds. I do want to get out there and meet new people, because honestly being alone most of the time does get pretty… well… lonely, but I also want to be alone sometimes (a.k.a. most of the time). How do you convince yourself to become more social when it’s not really who you are? How do you become that person without being a fake version of yourself?